Slump... or not?

So, after telling the trolls of the world that they couldn't stop me from dancing, I spent the past week not really dancing. I mean, I went to class and troupe practice like a good li'l troupe member, but I have not been dancing at home. I could try to blame it on a variety of reasons -- it's too hot in this house, I hurt my arm, Chris left a table in the middle of the living room floor, I had to write a million things this week -- but mainly it is that I am still feeling incredibly uninspired.

But those are all just excuses. No matter what, I could have at least carved a little space out of my living room and done some drills and then taken a shower to cool off. The truth is I haven't felt like dancing, not emotionally anyway, so I didn't dance. Every single day I would say to myself "I should practice today" and every single day I would grab onto every excuse not to. I even considered skipping class!

Today I broke free of the excuses and danced. I wanted to work on my Open Stage solo and on the solo I am going to audition for an upcoming Plaza show. Well, ok, I didn't WANT to work on them (I wanted to sit here looking at much prettier, better dancers on Pinterest), but I knew that if I didn't I would have no one but myself to blame when I looked like a dope on stage tonight and made an awful audition video.

So I put on my music and I started dancing, and I surprised myself. I felt connected to my music. Timing that I had been struggling with in my audition piece suddenly snapped into place. I feel really, really good about the practice I just had. I expected it to feel forced and awkward, but instead it felt inspired.

I need to remember times like this when I just do not feel like dancing. Maybe some days it won't be like this. But if the inspiration doesn't come, I can at least drill. There's no excuse for laziness. Life is too short to not practice.

Green Makeup and New Material

This image is here to remind you to come back to this blog tomorrow for my biggest cosmetics review yet! It's pretty insane. Don't miss it!

Anyway, my inspiration is slowly coming back. I'm working on some new solos at home, and new choreographies in class. I'm playing with skirt and sword (separately, not together) because I haven't been doing those lately and I feel like I should be able to whip out any of my props at any time. I'm still not practicing as much as I should, but I'm working up to it. At least I don't hate all of my music anymore.

Oh, and you know what I just realized? TWO MONTHS UNTIL TRIBAL FEST!!!! If that's not enough to get me excited about dancing, I don't know what is.

Funky funk

Day 179 of practice.

In a bit of a nostalgic funk. I blame the heat and the fact that I've been looking through my old writing. Today's practice was glute squeezes and arm isolations while reading a weird anthology. Just finished a really sad story, so that didn't help things at all. Time for sleep!